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An inventory team was sent to take stock of the costumes that were in her house. The team was from the Fashion House, the Accounts Department and the Ministry, to take the costumes that she had taken during the period of looting (Al-Hawasem) and I was with them. she had shabby scorched fabrics.. I told her: I buy my designs from you if you still have it? She said to me: Mohaymn, I am ready to burn them in my farm in front of them and not give it to them! I not hand it over to them! But that's all I have! She remembers this.
The new manager entered the world of fashion and design and he was trying to explore this world as the new player entered the stadium, he couldn't wait to meet the models, doing a fashion show he was very excited.

 

They called me from his office and said the new manager is asking to see you and wondering who is Mohaymn, bring me Mohaymn quickly! But it was in the tone of the new freedom and openness that has been created in the country... not to threatening or punishing with imprisonment.

 

I met him! He was a very nice and respectable personality, but hidden morality reveale through relation!
He told me you are Mohaymn!? really? I thought you were an old man!!!, you are still young for your reputation that they talk about!!! He said, Ive been told that you have a ready-made show for letters theme, where is it? I want it now and I want to meet with the models.. I told him the it is ready for the show and includes more than 48 ready-made pieces designed with accessories, shoes, inner and outer clothing designed according to the body measurements of girls who work in the fashion house as models.After we set a date for my show,  he tried to prove his management and superiority, by appointing people who had nothing to do with fashion or art. He tried to impose a person who has nothing to do with art or design, he was complains to me about politics and Saddam, as if I was responsible for his persecution. After the fall of Baghdad, everyone started saying I was persecuted, even my previous manager herself.
This person carried the same papers and documents under his sweating arm daily. The manager said to me: This was a political persecutor who needs a place by order of the Minister! Give him a work table and a chair in your office in your design department! It is supported by the Barzani party!

 

The new manager also employed media workers in the workshops and sewing rooms who were thirsty for writing and painting (flatter) in glorification and worship of the new director in the footsteps of the previous official government.

The big surprise was that he attributed my designs to his name as the previous director does today on the media! and bragging about empty fake patriotism!!!!! (So what has changed and what did you changed, you speaker sheeps)? At least in Saddam's time, no one would dare steal the artworks for an artist! Or the infringement of artistic property, the man was the biggest supporter of art, artists, culture and science despite his dictatorship.

 

The new manager has opened the door for appointment to anyone who thinks he can hold a pen and call himself a designer
And all of them started distorting and copy my designs and working on the same template patterns!! Perhaps he was suffering from cerebral diarrhoea!

For craftsmen who do not understand anything about work, and models with flabby and unbeautiful bodies, and elderly women who thought it was a charitable market!

What is really laughable is that he asked me to participate in my work and designs with the craftsmen and to listen and implement their observations and what they think of my desgins.

Apparently, the concept of freedom and democracy was taken from the back of freedom!! from the ass! And Cao blind and sighted!

 


"Democracy is not suitable for an ignorant society because a majority of donkeys will determine your destiny"

 

I told him: The craftsman is a craftsman and nothing more. His job is to accomplish what is required from him. The craftsman cannot start the sewing process if I do not decide on the color of the thread! The craftsman is someone who lacks the designer's experience, intelligence and talent in the design process! what are you talking about? These craftsmen I choose them to carry out my the work I design ! After they are tested and with my directives, I be with them follow up implementation from A to Z! To guarantee the result as I designed and planned!
models are bodies and shapes of certain sizes, certain lengths, and aesthetic characteristics in the face, which must be thin and graceful.. Those are global dimensions. Those are universal rules of the fashion design process.
We disagreed and I told him, Yasser, you are not suitable for this administration..fashion design is a technocratic, pragmatic process that belongs to many elements and symbols that are difficult for you to understand... He asked me what the hell did you meant by pragmatic word? Perhaps he thought it was an insult, so I explained to him.. He probably didn't understand my words, so he said: Management and design is (glass of tea with spoon of sugar and I move it in my hand) meaning a cup of tea*
I realized then that there is no common language between us in the dialogue! I said sorry I can't accept the losers you're trying to force me on! The design department is not a shelter for orphans or political persecuted! The design department needs a seamstress, a worker, an executor,  models with healthy and right bodies and faces within the beauty standards that no one here obviously knows about!

You should start edit the official books that document my work done in this house, the witness and the person responsible for editing the money submitted for the shows and costumes I accomplished since 2000.. He said I will inform the director that department to do the required work!
The director of the department approved my work in that house since 2000, the date I entered the house.. She wrote me letters of thanks and confession.
When I obtained these proofs, everyone would say congratulations to me, because everyone knows that I would not have obtained proof of my work during the time of the former director of the house! Note that it is the legitimate rights of the artist anywhere in the world, even if it is a monopoly.



 


The newspapers wrote quote me as saying, the fashion house is end in Iraq with details about the new corruption and administrative stupidity in the country!

 

The press wrote quoting me during my meetings with them at the National Theater from time to time. This article was infuriated by the director after he saw the article and the media started transmission outline what happened in the Iraqi fashion house. 


He called me evening and said, “I will bring journalists and photographers, and I want you to refute what was said in the newspapers about me now, do you understand?”  You ruined my life, or I swear to God I will make the Americans armi throw you behind the sun! 

 

I told him to do what you like.. First, I did not write about you, the media people wrote about you and the press, so you have to respond to them and prove to them that you are the designer and that is your work! You took a full fashion folklore show from me and registered it in your name and you bragged about it while I am alive with you I even not quit yet. What is your difference from the previous manager?? Shame on you, and now you call me shivering? 

 

Director Yasser said the next day: Choose any place or position in the ministry or a job you dream of obtaining, now I will immediately achieve it for you, with the salary you want. I want you to leave the place immediately, you have to leave the house!


I told him: What I am in came to me in pursuit without seeking it in the most difficult circumstances with president Saddam time, through my art and my talent.. I have never sought a position, a job or money through intermediaries, art is my life and my language that I belong to.. and my talent put me in this strong position that bartered me You are in it now!  
He told me: My friend Aqil Al-Mandalawi is the general manager of cultural relations. I will ask him to take you there until we find a solution that satisfies you!
The man wanted to get rid of me to prove to the media that he was the designer not me.

 

After that, I've been told that some of the main craftsmens of the fashion house which I've chosen and tested had left, they were knew what I wanted for years.even my assistants Amani, who prepared coffee for me every morning and recorded what was produced and what I needed and called me everywhere, and I was tiring her with my demands and not being in preoccupations when she want me.

I was take the opportunities to attend the lectures at the College of Fine Arts.. A greeting of love and respect to her if she was among the neighborhoods.. and some of the workers who were eyes on the departments and what is happening around me.. where most of these materials and proofs I got thanks to them.. and some of the models It was the beginning of immigration from the country! They were people worthy of the place, design and art! 

 

After them, strange and freakish groups entered by that new manager Yasser, each raising the flag of a particular party or religion and wants and demands and is ready to quarrel and scream, it was like a real farce!... 

People who they do not resemble my fabrics, or even my colors, or my ideas!

 

The fashion house ended up in a state of real diarrhea that you don't know how to stop!.. the language of art has ended and the language of the political persecutor, the party, religion, and mediation is prevalent. 

You find that the services of a craftsman a good craftsman who I did trained have been terminated every day and another person from a certain party has been reassigned!.. I ask who are you? He tells me I am a political persecutor and this is my new place! Even the colors of the fabrics changed from the colors of the academy, studied wisely and with scientific rules, changed to the colors of the costumes of the gypsy festivals after I left the place!

 

my costumes has been stolen, and it has been offered in the name of the new director Yasser, and he recorded loud echoes among the livestock, which made the director a star in the skies of the ministry and culture just as the my old manager she was before him.

The manager Yasser he send to me invitation to my costumes show which he stolen.

The text of the invitation says:

 

We have the honor to invite you to attend the folkloric show costumes at the Jawahery Hall in the new headquarters of the Ministry of Culture in Zayouna Area... On 24.11.2005..etc.

But I ignored it... 
And it was like a booty that fell from the sky, everyone was practicing their democratic currency and the cleaner was saying I contributed to it and the seamstress says I made it and everyone is bragging, the manager was asked where did you get this from? He said: I was inspired by newspapers and magazines..!




The press asked the director, where did you get this? Where did you get these ideas? He said: I found it in newspapers and magazines!



The Minister ... talking proudly about the costumes that his son the new manager acquired in front of the press after the show ended 24.11.2005..



The new manager with my costumes again, history always repeats itself.. the manager before him she did same, and after they end her services, he did same!  and the story continues...
24.11.2005




Pictures of some original sketch designs





Pictures of some designs after implementation

 


 Translation

Ministry of Culture

Iraqi house of fashion

2005.12.26 

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Certificate

In recognition of the serious and effective contribution to the achievement of many of designs in this fashion house, and our recognition of what the designer has provided in this house (Mohaymn Sami) titled (senior designer) a wonderful artistic effort that included fashion shows, designing models and color options of the engravings of goblin fabrics and for local production of Iraqi factories, uniforms for judges of the Ministry of Justice and Local government, theatrical play Zabiba and the King, Arabic Letters Shows, and the various activities of the house special shows who designed the accessories and did it own make-up, and for the great impact that he left in supporting the artistic movement in costumes, It was decided to award him this certificate.




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An investigative committee .. Models must wear a burqa during the show’s !

While the new manager was enjoying the new job with the costumes show he took it from me, that he claims he design it, and bragging about it through performances in front of the media at that time, he was interrogating me through a new official (Islamic extremist) on fashion while I start work as graphic design in (the cultural relations department) in the ministry of culture.
The employees in the Department of Cultural Relations knew that I was the designer of the house and my artistic history, especially some of them were colleagues and friends of mine from the Ministry of Culture and Information before the war!! And they know that I left the house after my dispute with its manager! Where they were following my work in the fashion house and we always met behind the scenes where I was always after attending shows!

It was rumored that a religiously fierce deputy director with influence and a religious militia had been installed and had protection from the gunmen with him, and all the girls in the work offices were forced to wear the veil and long dress by force!! 

Everyone was forced to wear a long Islamic dress, except for the director's secretary.

 

An investigation committee was set up  to me after it was reported that Mohaymn, the designer of the Fashion house is here, moved from his department to the Cultural Relations Department.

 

The Cultural Relations Department manager didn't know about that committee they set me up through his agent. The committee was made up of a lawyer who worked as one of the department’s employees in the capacity of a lawyer.. a woman working in the administration they brought her as a witness and two guards, and the deputy director Sheikh, as he was a religious person who was said to have thrown the turban and the abaya (religious dress), shaved his long beard and put on jeans and gave the position of deputy director general from the party who supports it!

 

Two of the deputy director's guard entered the department with their weapons! And they told me the professor is waiting for you in his room now! 

He said: Those costumes that were shown on the stage belong to you? I proudly told him yes, did you like it? Angrily reply of course not!

I told him jokingly, so it's not mine, it's Yasser's design's  not mine, and I laughed...

He said, “Those costumes did not please anyone, and these costumes are disgrace and disgrace, and they violate our religion and our customs, and you encourage our nakedness.. And your biggest misfortune is that you put verses from the Qur’an on their bodies!! Was it the Qur’an?” Isn't it?

 

An argument process began with me. It was an attempt to provoke me and frighten me with pagan religious interpretations that are not Islam. I felt that someone from backward ages talking me, what he was telling me that no sane or educated person could accept them. It served the goals of the Iranian religious agenda and heresy represented in slapping on head and other circus acts that are alien to the magical romance stories of One Thousand and One Nights! 
There is no compulsion in religion! 
He said: What are those written texts?
I told him that the language of art is difficult for you to understand! 
As for the private parts nakedness, no private parts were revealed. They told me that everyone was wearing underwear!
The lawyer told me, man, are you mocking? The professor means the woman!! I laughed!!
I said to him: What do you say to me that it is a nakedness and shame? Is female is women have always been an essential and important component for me!
Women are a gentle creature that is she was always my inspiration and will be and the reason for my artistic achievement. 
I went a little further by my describing to her (the woman), but my words angered him more and more, the lady in the room was the only one who supported me and was trying to soften the atmosphere and trying to explain to him, in a way that try to deceived him and cool him dwon and she smiled a lot to lighten the atmosphere parlous, but I was correct her and say no... no ... I didn't mean that, I meant what I said it is clear to everyone.
Then she says Mohaymn we are here trying to help you here please! We want to finish the topic, you have to go back to the design section and she look at him with fear looking! 
I told them: here I do not have a serious job. The work I do here is very easy. I was appointed here through an agreement between me and the directors of the departments... after my designs has been stolen.
And what I see is that you need help more than me.. What backwardness are you in? I can't understand how you think, I'm depressed about the colors of your clothes and clothes, I feel like I'm in an Iranian department, not an Iraqi! I told him again: Women are the ones who inspired me to create these artworks.. Women are the first pillar in my work.. I gave him many definitions about women and my love for women!! Whenever I speak well of women, he end up look like I keep insulting him... But it seems that I raised his blood pressure above his scalp, and he started plucking the hair on his chin and rubbing it and making a sound in the middle of calm after every response they received from me! His eyes never blink again.
He said, listen carefully: Your next show does not reveal the body or face of a woman, so use the veil and long dress for them! Is this understood? I said, of course not.. I laughed and mocked. 
I said: So you are the owner of those disgusting laws forcing my female colleagues to wear veils and burqa? I told him you do not know what is said behind you...
Man! Women hate having you in this place and they are not happy to see you, they trying to hide from you!

 

Why not leave the creation to the Creator? He said: Who? who's she? who's that who talk about me? I said: No, I will not tell you, and although I do not understand anything you are saying to me about new stupid religion, I left that fashion house and this is the reason why I am with someone like you here in a routine circle that I do not belong to the new hybrid culture!!
Everyone in the room hubbub and said, "this is a commission of inquiry, why are you ruining your life?" Are you crazy?..you are definitely not conscious!! What you say is a fault..a fault, Oh Mohaymn.  respect the man.. and I apologize for what you've said to him right now immediately that he is the assistant general manager!! I told them if it was even the deputy president, I don't care!!
He asked me again with his eyes almost closed out of rage, who are you? Who is your father, Mohaymn? Who sent you on us!??
I said: Boasting about lineages and fathers was a custom in the pre-Islamic eras!
The members of the committee said: Answer, Oh Mohaymn please, answer the man, who are you? but I refused to speak.
He said to me: Are you in your mind? Are you aware of what you say to me and what you said? Do you know what might happen to you as a punishment for your words!! I told him I am aware more than you, and I am in my mind more them all av you and know what I say very well, but are you?!!
The Deputy manager Sheikh replied while looking at them and smiling mockingly again and said this is sunni!! These behaviors reflect a sunni personality, that is your religion sunni people!! Are you sunni? sunni? He started saying sunni hysterically..

I answered him... I hate those sects I am innocent of these doctrines, I am of the doctrine of romance and religious art!  I left my seat in anger and tried to get out of the room, the guard caught me and the assistant manager ordered them to leave me!! He shouted hysterically: Leave him! leave him... He told me before I go out.. it might be yours, it might be your last day in your life!! Do you realize this? I told him.. so what's new then?
The situation in Iraq is militias and the mafia, each with its own group. These groups are always armed and have influence in Iran and work as government, they try to avoid clashing with each other... When I was arguing and talking forcefully with them, they thought I was supported by one of those militias, to make sure that what type power of militia will clash with them after hurt me or killing me, which made them ask me over and over what my religion and sect are to make sure... they didn't expect me to speak that way of myself.  That's why the deputy manager was asking me (who sent you to us)?

When I was talking, I was ready for my end, so there was no escape from that fate, many of my friends have been killed. So, the qualifying season had begun and the killings over sect and religion in the country and death lists had begun.. I was confident that I would be eliminated on my return home.. but I went to more than one place and wasted a lot of time with the driver and asked him to use roads other than the one he takes every day, I told him what happened and he became very suspicious.. until I went home and he scared me every once in a while saying that they are behind us.. and he laughs because killing in Baghdad is very normal... 
I called the manager of the this department, Aqil, my manager and his friend Yasser  the director of the fashion house who they put me in that department, in the same day and told them what happened with me. I told them that I will announce what you are doing with me immediately in a press conference with the journalists of the National Theater.

The subject raised their astonishment and they had no connection or knowledge of the subject! Director Aqil asked me to be patient and do nothing and no bother, and come to his office on the second day in the morning!! To understand what's going on with me! 

The next day, I found all the departments of the ministry talking about what happened in that meeting!! And my colleagues were very happy and applaud what I said to that man and say you are the only man who stood in his face in this place no one would have dared to do this to this disgusting person We were forced here We were all forced to wear the hijab and the old long Islamic dress involuntarily! And they said to me, "Don't worry, there is a minister you can complain to, and we are with you in this and we support you, and we are witnesses and we would like to attend with you!"

I came to the office of the Director General, Aqil, and after I briefed him on the vocabulary of what happened in the alleged committee quickly and the type of stupid dialogue.. The man understood what happened and held a meeting at the same moment. He said wait here.. He asked the members of the committee to attend and his agent Sheikh to attend, and he said to them: What is your problem with Mohaymn? The Deputy Director Sheikh said, "Professor, he is mocking religion."

All of us have been insulted, No one can stand up to him!Aqeil, the Director General, said, “Look, Professor.. He is addressing his deputy Sheikh.. Mohaymn is the son of this ministry and he is older than you and me here, do you know this?” Take it easy and calm with him, and leave him to his own world! He is an artist and has a special perspective that views life through him.. Is this understandable? He is our guest at this place! Aqeil would end every argument and question with him firmly about me and say leave him alone.. Aqeil finished the matter with a level of professionalism after he intervened on the same day.

 

The decision to close the fashion house.

The cycle of days turned quickly and roles changed on the stage of that miserable ministry.. So the minister and those with him from the cliques of directors and their agents and other investors of parties and colored sects were appointed.. Dr. Asaad Al-Hashemi was installed he was appointed Minister of Culture and May, who was aware of my story with the new government and the thefts and bragging of my artwork, May she's became the director of the Fashion House! 

The craftsmen called me and said the new director (May Joseph Ramo) presented your artwork (costumes) in the presence of the Algerian ambassador, and after claiming that she was the designer of the works, the Algerian ambassador kissed her hands on the designs that were created by her hands as he think..!

There is no point in talking more... {There is no life for whom you call}!
The Minister of Culture Dr. Asaad Al-Hashemi decided to close the Fashion House.


 


The first page of the study introduction to the minister about the fashion house to stop him shutdown the fashion house.


Translation

The Republic of Iraq
Ministry of Culture
To The Minister Dr. Asad al-Hashemi
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What is the fashion house and its artistic and administrative system!

Designer Mohaymn Sami Amle

 

Written notes
The deputy minister wrote to the minister
The study is good and deserves attention...

 

The minister wrote to his undersecretary please follow up on the matter and activate it...

 




 

The undersecretary wrote to the minister...

Please kindly give your approval to re-assign Mr. Mohaymn to the origin of the fashion house his department, instead of the department of cultural relations

The Minister wrote that the senior designer was approved to transfer his services...







In implementation of the ministerial order No 7442 - 2006
Mr. Mohaymn proceeded with the title of Senior Designer in this House...


 

I was returned to the House of Fashion by a ministerial order after informing the Minister Dr. Asaad Al-Hashemi on my case, after we met in his office, in which the nature of the house of fashion and the foundations of its work were discussed, and how to restore the competencies that left the place through studying their understanding of what this work is and how it can succeed again after the ex-manager ruined it. 
He decided to return me to the fashion house, as he intended to cancel and close the fashion house, that they believe it is as a day club!! as a center of corruption and infidelity, and it is a useless place, as was rumored.. But the man needed to someone to makes him understand what that house is in a scientific and cultural way.
He decided to nominate me as director of the fashion house and to include the house in the activities of Baghdad, the capital of culture 2009.


 

But for me it was crazy...


 

When I returned to that house, I was a complete stranger to it and it was completely alien to me.. I could not recognize the language of its craftsmen or understand them.. or read those extraneous symbols with which the house was abhorred.. It had taken a direction of a barbaric, religious and pagan color that had been brought back from pre-Islamic times, raw materials. Tribal and Bedouin, shiny cheap, tilted far and wide towards the Persian-Iranian culture! and evaporated in it

Those high-end artistic academic goals that were going according to the rules of sense, beauty, intellectual and spiritual creativity of the canon of art geniuses! It ended there. 

 

I received written and verbal messages threatening to liquidate  for every article I wrote, or criticism of the state of how the country ended up or shows. Letters sometimes reach my desk drawer and I throw them in the trash, and we used to laugh at what was written in them, I with my friends.We joke with the cleaner and tell him you are the one who did this. I was asking who entered my office and how and when and I didn’t find an answer, even the new craftsmen I have, my craftsmen after the fall of iraq were threatening, and I find threat and intimidation wherever I go or leave, whether it is behavior, speech or writing after he entered Iraq is the stage of the civil war, death lists and qualifiers. 

My works were copied and deformed by people who had nothing to do with design or art, and they distorted the design and put on dead, sterile colors and fabrics that you find in cheap popular nightclubs and discos. The design was taken from (the ass).



 

A gift was given to Queen Elizabeth, one of the fake works, as one of my designs work, as they mentioned in the post! The work is counterfeit and executed on the original pattern. It is not one of my designs or colors, from the Iraqi president!



 



Wrong information, I have nothing to do with designs like that! this is not mine!




They try to imitate and copy in vain (FALSE)



 

Britain's Queen Elizabeth II got false forged design... The design is counterfeit, tarnished and executed on the original pattern and signed by one of the intellectually unemployed, whose name is Milad, from the designers of the period of looting (al-Hawasem). I was told that they found him copying my designs on the window through the light!


 





Britain's Queen Elizabeth II 

Poor thing she got a fake design with a badly copied freak design not mine!


 



Original design



Original design



 

The original design





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I lost many of my friend’s  and colleagues in the Ministry of Culture and Information at work and in college after Iraq entered the stage of killing and slaughter on identity, some of them died, beheaded, and some of them were raped by girls who worked in the Ministry of Culture with me previously, and his body was represented.. and some of them disappeared. On his way to work, it is said after a while that he found a missing head or replaced his head with a dog's.. Their phone numbers and names have been last in my phone for years, and I would not have dared to delete them. Behind each of name and number are tales, memories, adventures, love and longing.

I graduated finally.. Although my graduation course was named after Iraq’s hope, I did not find that hope.I did not find my friends and colleagues who were professional and famous in their work, as I grew up with them in various media, artistic and cultural professions. I did not find an address or a place for managers with whom I had brotherly friendships.. I did not find my friends after graduation. Only their pictures remained chronicling and insomnia me with questions and memories in those places that had become deserted and neglected, no longer in the place, souls, faces and hearts changed, turned and changed, and there was no longer God in them or his law, not even the morals of the Holy Prophet who we lived and brought up on her heavenly laws... Love, morals, respect, goodness, honor and honesty...

 


 

 

Baghdad ended up to an old tree with ruined roots that extended to a Persian land, not its land in which we were born, and its branches shed blood, killing, death and the law of stone ages..

 

I no longer have a place in that country, the human mind, entity, or even his past is no longer valuable there, my language has become incomprehensible to others, and my way of thinking and ambitions have become alien to that land and people and have become anger and anger... Suddenly they link any subject to religion and killing.


 



All my designs and artworks presented a love for fine art, the enchanting civilizations and history, a love for the woman and her body, that unique divine formation... translating it in these designs does not flatter or search for fame in fake channels or looking for money.



(Patriotism is the last refuge of bastards)

Samuel Johnson


 




I turned the page of my life in that land and I left with no return.